They turn their faces to look at me
I know what is coming-my heart beats fast in anticipation
Their mouths form the familiar words
and I hear the question before it leaves their tongue
“Do you have any plans for the weekend?”
How many times will they ask this questions before it dawns on them that the answer is always the same?
No. Nope. Nein. Na. Non. Rara. Nehin. Mba. Nyet. Naw. Não. Naheen. Iie. Ochi.
How long before they realise I have no tribe to share my days with
How long before it dawns on them that I am just wasting away my youth
doing nothing, creating no memories?
Why must they torture me so?
Do they keep asking in the hopes that one day it will be different
or is this just the dreaded small talk for which there is no cure?
A chirpy smile appears on my face
I inhale and infuse some joy into my voice
“Oh nothing much. I’m just hanging out with my friends.”
“Yeah I’m so tired. I just need to relax”
“Yeah it’s nice to just relax sometimes.”
Rinse and repeat.