It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day, it’s a new life for me, and I’m feeling good.
I am writing yet another new year post, and even though I am terrified by time hurtling by, I am not going to drone on about getting older and passage of time as I usually do.
I am not even going to attempt to write down some things I want to achieve (learn French, perfect my swimming e.tc). I have one goal/motto for 2019 and that is to mindfully live my life; to live more deliberately and decisively.
I am very well aware of how quickly time goes by (welp guess I am talking about this) but up till now I had been content to watch it pass me by and then moan about it later. In 2019 I want to not only be aware of the minutes, but to also be conscious of what I do with them. No longer will I lie in bed doing nothing only to look up and it’s night time and I cannot say exactly what I did with the time.
I want to be more decisive; for someone who bangs on about how precious time is, I do spend a lot of it aimlessly starring into space under the guise of trying to make a decision. I will make decisions and not beat myself up about them after because; 1) the grass is always greener. The alternative is not necessarily better; 2) It really does not matter. It may be annoying but is the world going to end because I chose chicken when I should have gone with fish?
I realised in the last days of 2018 that one main source of the blues for me is the wastage of time. Time is so precious and once it is gone it is lost forever. So when I spend so much time doing nothing when I could be/should have been doing something it weighs on me and depresses my mood.
Up till now I was the kind of person who says she wants to do something and rather than work towards it, just lazes around swishing around the idea. Until now my motto was “We’ll see/I’ll figure it out” knowing fully well that I was not making any concrete plans.
Now when I want to do something I am not going to leave it till “later”, I will try to figure it then and there if possible. If I want to make my hair, rather than bore everyone else with tales of how I want to do my hair, I will actually sit down and think of what hairstyle I want, where I’ll do the hair, and when.
Key word for 2019: mindfulness.
So help me God.
Happy New Year! I hope this is a good one.