You have worked so hard this year, and I know it has been depressing and draining. The work will always be there, so please take the time to fully relax! Lay around all day and do nothing. Use this time to indulge yourself and recharge; then boldly start the steps towards a new life. Change is scary but necessary. You have outgrown this position and it is time to move.
Happiness is just around the corner. God is with you.